Routine.
Sucks. You know what, I'm getting pretty bored around here in coll. Bored of the same emotions that comes and goes. Never ending cycle.
I'm jealous, I'm a pretty jealous bastard. This is the feeling that I've always had. I knew I had it, I just never told myself that it was jealousy. Goddamn jealousy. Who the fuck invented such a thing? Coupled with the amount of things to study and assignments, it's just a disaster. You concentrate, you get distracted, you think about stuff, you get jealous, you get angry, you can't study, you try to study, you think over things, you realise that you should be studying, you come over to your blog and hope that someone notices.
Real fucks.
I'm tired of rotating of being a crazy fuck who laughs his ass off, and being emo the next second. Nothing can be worst than lying to yourself. I'm miserable.
I should just leave this godforsaken place. I don't know why I'm complaining though, I brought all these upon myself.
This just sucks, now I'm complaining about the things that I did to myself. God... don't tell me that I exchanged that few hours of being on cloud nine for this shit that has gone on for months. Fuck karma, it doesn't fucking work.
I need to get out of here go on a long holiday, or hit myself on the head to get amnesia, or get someone to hit me silly. This has gone on long enough.
FOR FUCKS SAKE. I'VE ENOUGH. Can someone just get an eraser and erase this feeling off me, like now? Being emo suck.
ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH. Need to get icecream. Kthxbye.
