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12 pictures to represent the different me in the past 12 months.

January.


February.


March.


April.



May.


June.


July.


August.


September.


October.


November.


December.



BRING ON THE NEW YEAR. Merry X'mas to everyone in advance.

These are camp bandannas. Why do I have all 3 different types? Cause I wasn't involved, I was once again taking the place of a facilitator. This time for special kids. No no no.. not the mentally retarded, but quite the opposite, the Kumon High Achievers, and I tell you, these kids especially the 9-12 are freaking smart, and entertaining. I should know best, cause I was in charge of the Charlie Company's 9-12.

There was this kid name Yazid, you know what was the first thing he said about me?

"You should do something to your hair."

Damn right kid, I should done something to my hair 2 months ago. He had the guts to tell it to me, it's not something you'd say to a person that you just met, but this kid told me right off the moment he saw me.

The kids were amazing even though they were a little hard to handle at some point,but I enjoyed the moment I was there, and the people I worked with.. it's an experience you woudln't get anywhere. Best of all, I GOT PAID. WAHAHAHA...

I ask the kids about the camp, and they said that it was much better than they expected, they had fun and would come back again next year. A little more snooping on the internet revealed that even the elder kids had fun, I even found a picture of myself.



Anyways.. that's all about last week. Here's something more... Please proceed to find out. Heh.

If you just had dinner, or planning to have dinner, or feel like having something..

Don't continue. I've warned you.

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RIP.

Dogs are man's best friend. See God, if only you made dogs talked, the rat wouldn't have been rotting for a day without anyone noticing. And it would make Man love his dog even more.

Dogs talking, that's all I and all man on earth ask for this Xmas.

Who needs a cat when a dog can do a cat's work?

Btw, cake coming up this week, couldn't do it today cause sis took the camera to work.

2nd post of the day. Post will be short and right to the point, cause tired.

Was out meeting with friends from form 6, then Linggesh told me that he wanted to tanni right after that. I dunno what I was thinking, I said yes.

Got cups and coke and half a bottle of j.d. Went to Taman Rakyat, he served the drinks. After 3 cups and 10 minutes, we emptied the bottle. Drowsiness, spinning head, and heart palpitations set in.

Started puking back home. From 1am-7am. No sleep, spinning head and puking. Hugging the toilet bowl as if my life depended on it, sleeping in the bathroom. Scratching of hand and legs even though they were not itchy, thirsty, went for a drink of water and puke even more. Wondered if I was going to die, considered of admitting to hospital for IV drip. Considered of possible death due to dehydration.

Worst 6 hours of my life. Horrible. I'm not drinking anymore.

For now.

Pictures from Putrajaya as promised. Pictures were taken on a rainy day, so it's nothing really nice. I've decided to add tips for those who wants to improve on their photography skills.


This is the Mosque in Putrajaya. Obviously would have been a better picture if it was a bright shiny day.


A little tweak to the shutter speed of the camera produces different result. I decreased the shutter speed of the camera to allow less light, which is why I was able to capture the clouds that was absent in the first picture. But it also cost me a darker picture of the Mosque, but it does bring out the mood of gloom.


This is the prime ministers office.


This is one of the nicer bridges in Putrajaya. Would have been nicer if it was taken at night.


Another bridge in Putrajaya, that also looks much better at night, as seen in the next picture.


A little blurry because the shutter speed in this picture is increased. As most of you already know, night shots are prone to blurriness, this is because the camera increased the shutter speed to allow more light in and if your hands are not steady, the picture would come out blur.


If you want to play safe with night shots, use the flash. You won't be able to reproduce the picture as you see it. But you remove the blurriness for sure.

Another way to tackle the troubles of night shots is to increase the ISO. Most digital cameras have preset scenes, e.g scenes for night shots. In this scene, the camera automatically increases the ISO, so that you'd be able to take night shots without the flash, thus reproducing as what you see. But the picture comes out alot more grainy and decrease in quality is very visible.

To overcome both of these problems, use a tripod, or put your camera somewhere stable. Increase the shutter speed/lower your ISO (if you've manual settings on your camera) and turn your flash off.


This is an example of how much a tripod can help in taking night pictures. Of course this was taken with the camera zoomed out at 12x optical.


And if you're able to master the balance between shutter speed/ISO. You'll be able to take pictures like this. I took this in the car while driving, had to set the camera before I could make the shot, but the light faded and there was traffic :( so I missed the shot.

Ugh... so... umm... yeah... Got a new layout. Results are out, totally fucked up. But here's an interesting story for the 3 measly people that visits this site daily.

I was in Putrajaya today, technically, yesterday. But it's today for me anyways, since my sleeping hours is 3/4 am - 2/3pm. My day usually starts at 3pm and ends at around 4am. It's 3am now, so I went to Putrajaya today. Geddit?

I was there to deal with some stuff regarding the project. Anyways, the place is really big, you've almost all your ministries in that one place. But.. it's a waste of money. Building the place is not a waste of money, I agree withthe concept that keeping all the ministries at one place, but take a good look at the place, it doesn't look like Malaysia at all. I mean, of couse there is your Islam-ized architecture that makes it fairly Malaysia.. you know what.. forget it. I think that it's a PLACE where the ministry can make absurd purchase e.g flower pots for a thousand ringgit, etc etc.. trying to make the place look real nice, but another excuse to drain the money off elsewhere. You know what I mean.

Oh.. took pictures of the place too. Will post them up later.

That wasn't so interesting was it? This would be more interesting..

I almost crash the car. If you didn't know, I crashed the car once before.

This time in campus. But thanks to my excellent driving skills I was able to steer the skidding car through the corner and exit without a problem. Why again?! Well.. It was because Paparoach -Last Resort was on and another song before that. Songs can really fuck with your mind, you know, especially when you can really relate with the lyrics.

Oh.. and one of my Uni-mates found his soul-mate. I was chatting with him the same night I almost totaled the car about how he found her etc etc.. teased him a little, Heh.. I always like to tease people in this situations, lol, can't help it, I said, "Look at you now... you've found yours and I'm still single!" and he replied, "You're single because you want it that way."

I laughed it off in the beginning, but after thinking hard, he was right. Which got me questioning my decision to cut off communication with her. Those two songs forced me to remember things that I said and done.. and drove my car real fast. I still think that I did what's best for me, it might not be the right thing to do, but what's done is done. At least when I'm old, I'd able to laugh at the silly things I've done. Thinking about it, it was immature. You know what people say about old people. Old people are children trapped in their aged body. Heh.. maybe I'm already a senile old fool.

That's all for today. I'll be baking a cake one of these day, so watch out.

Amazing dexterity. Simply amazing.

THIS, This my friends, is what I call adorable, not your cute-125s-wannabes. Makes my day a little better every time I watch it.

This is probably the only time I lost my cool to someone not in my family. I found this chat log while looking through the chat logs to see where I've been this year. It's been probably the worst year of my life, and it's also been a meaningful one. Read below.

Friend: then u talk urself la...my result like shit...just now some more kena speed trap...damm bad mood now....
Me: screw you la.. you knew what you were into when you started skipping class over the smallest of things
Friend: better than some1 made everybody not syok by showing crazy look and action..
Friend: think b4 u said...
Me: according to your logic then i should have just skipping the entire shanghai trip
Friend: nobody ask u to skip//
Friend: just stop doin stupid action...
Friend: and this is not only for the trip..
Friend: just can tell u everybody is talking bout u when u r not around...
Friend: b4 the trip
Friend: during the trip
Friend: even after the trip..
Me: you know what... tell me now
Me: i want to know what all of you have been ttalking about me
Friend: no need to ask...
Me: maybe if you guys STARTED to ASK me what freaking happened, instead of TALKING behind my backs, something useful would have happened, woudn't you think so?
Friend: u already know what every1 said when u start those stupid action...
Friend: same like i already know what my result since i start skip class..
Me: i should know, like what?
Friend: every1 also got asked u..
Friend: just u dun wanna tell..
Me: okay.. everyone asked me what's the problem with me, fine
Friend: not once ...already many time...
Me: but what's with the thing of saying things when i'm not around?
Me: godd.. if you've a fucking problem with me, you SAY IT TO ME
Me: even if it's not nice to hear, i can accept it
Friend: they ask u dun wanna tell...even worse u just ignore ppl and go away all the time...
Friend: doin stupid action...
Friend: who will keep asking the same question after that...
Friend: human is like that...after such thing...just non stop guessing...
Me: i'll be frank with you, NONE of you, and i mean NONE of you know what i'm going through
Friend: coz u never telll..
Friend: who will know..
Friend: then just guess lo...
Me: hehe.. it's because i cannot freaking tell you guys, ESPECIALLY you guys
Friend: every1 worry u...
Friend: but u dun care...
Friend: thats what made ppl not syok...
Friend: made ppl not willing ask anymore...
Friend: made ppl afraid of u...
Friend: i going out soon...
Friend: not going to argu with u in such mood...
Friend: take ur time and think of urself...
Friend: or else phone some1 that bring such problemss to u to ask them...
Me: you pick up the fucking phone

I realized now that, none of us were wrong. He was pointing out the fact that I wasn't being myself destroying the atmosphere within the group of friends. I didn't have a choice, I see no other way to dealing with the emotions going through me at the time, and if I were to be in the same situation all over again, it'd be dejavu, even if I tried to change things, it'll end up being the same. It wouldn't be fair to say that I didn't try to change, I did, but I always fall back being the same old gloomy person that I was. I'm weak, perhaps.

No, I didn't think that twould be talking behind me back, and, psssh.. like they didn't already know what was happening. But surely, I'd like to know what they were talking about me. I still do.

Hello citizens of the interweb, I'm glad to announce to you, yes, you lifeless idiots who are unfortunate enough to stumble upon this page, or a regular visitor of this emo part of the internet, some good news. There won't be an entry for the next 3 weeks because I'd be too busy screwing up my papers (plural) during the final examination for the above said 3 weeks. I have stumble across, however, some material that would entertain you to an extend, as it has already provided me with endless entertainment, or maybe it's just me because I'm high smoking off something. Heh. Anyways, back to topic.

It has come to my attention that certain factions (plural) of people found similarities between me and some other people. I however find this as a joke, a good joke, or maybe it's because I think it was a good joke because I'm high right now. Anyways, taking an example from my younger cousin, I look like Lee-Hom, which is ridiculous, because I do see ANY resemblance at all, no matter how many pictures I take of myself and compare them to all the pictures Google Image search has to offer. I'm laughing right now. HA HA HA... That was a very loud laugh by the way.

Did I mention that I was high? Anyways, I'm high right now, and I'll post her blog entry as below. Enjoy.

NOTE: PLEASE READ ALOUD FOR MAXIMUM ENTERTAIMENT. THIS WILL NOT FAIL YOU. BECAUSE I'M LAUGHING MY ASS RIGHT NOW, MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE THAT I'M HIGH, MAYBE NOT. I THINK I'M HIGH. TOODLES!


my little time with my cousins...
yiyahee...
o...so sad..juz back from my grandmother's house..
i feel veli happy cauz emily jie jie was back..ha..ha.
she became more pretty..
=>she always d pretty...
jimmy go go..means a di go go oso went back..
wa sei..his hair styles became veli...i dun neo how 2 discribe..
but yan qing...oso my cousin said dat look like rain..
what..like rain..4 course dat is not..
we o means from d back...
hope dat he didn't neo it..ha..ha..
emily jie jie like 2 make fun..we o really getting laughing n laughing
when talk with her..
dun neo y..i tin she is prefect 8 all..
my cousin n i like her veli much~~
she ha a youner sis..erm..
she oso d nice..
but she cut her hair until...botak..i dun neo y..
getting stres..i hope no so..
she told grandmother no 1 wan 2 ply with her cauz she look different..
i felt veli regret..when i heard it..am i..
she oso d best la... i lov all.. b fair..
ai...suddenly felt sad..
woo~~
i juz neo some funny funny name on my cousins oso..
actually..we all so bad =P
1 of my biao ge..Y.B go go..
look nice..hi eldest sis tell ur 1..
emily jie jie..HAH..
we call him Y.B cauz his full name..
sigh~~ we o..oso caus him young boy~~
2 him..i i tin he felt proud lo..young~~
erm..he is young lo...i itn juz 19..
really dun play play..maybe i juz sawhim when new year o some festival..
i..yanqing..my sis n so on..felt dat he look like li hom..
i relly can't believe it..i am not joking now...
of course is not d hairstyle again..
but..2 d other where..he look like wuzhun..
really crazy..i tin more like wu zhun..his hairstyle oso..
becauz of dis..we quarrel..
ha..ha..not so..i tin is juz chat la...
he oso had listen 2 their song..
half half..how poor my english now..
sorry...paiseh..
1 more...is kacang go go..
we o look like so bad la..
o no..he was with a long...hair...
8 first i really get a shock..
heart attack...no la..
but lastly..i felt better la..
he juz told us he wan 2 look different..
y so funny..his sis is botak while he is with a long hair..
really funny..we called him kacang cauz his name is kiang xiang..
it sound like kacang rite?? oso emily jie jie tole us 1..
ya...she had called her two younger brother like dis since they r small..

HAH..juz to said we o play 21jack n chou dai ti dis new year..
with o of my cousin..
is not bad rite??
juz who lost who eat cake n some'delicious'drink lo..
ai..i eaten n drank b4..getting veli 'nice'
n we had some kararoke..nice..
2 show our...he..he..
although is look not so good la..
i means myself..
HAH..

ai..school days is coming..y..
juz had a happy n unforgetable days..with my relatives..
n now when back 2 own home..
n d exam is coming soon..
b relax..
dis year i must study hard..
i will~~

Hapy chinese new year...

Dear diary,

Today is the 26th of Oct. It's actually 1:19 am right now, and to tell you the truth, I haven't been studying for the past 2 days. Like totally. Notes are still in the same place 2 days ago. And prior 2 days, I had a whooping 2 total hours studying. 2 hours!

I'm currently doing nothing. ^^ Finals is on Wed, and I haven't started anything yet. Things that I've read, I've like totally forgotten everything. Like totally. I've been on 4chan, worried about losing my /b/ because of Caturday Nap, and watching /b/tards doing absolutely nothing. I was right all along to say that I can never study at home, it's probably only one of the things that I really mean what I said. Other times, I say things that I'd think is right at the moment, only to change it the very last moment. ^^ You might not understand it Dear diary, but I do a few who has got this treatment more than once from me. Awww... dont' be sad, I promise I'll write to you more next time kay? ^^

I'm quite impressed by myself. ^^ Yeah... ashamed too. Right.

I'm not back in coll because.. oh it's nothing. Don't worry about it. I just didn't feel like going back. ^^

Oh.. btw, did I tell you that I got my eyebrow pierced? Yeah.. I got it pierced, right eyebrow. Was in the mall, saw the piercing parlor and just got it done. Meh.. now I've to put up with the looks people give and endless question why I got it done. Truth is, I don't know why I got it too. But it's there now, and I'm sure that I'd be able to tell other people why I got it in the first place sometime soon. Cause right now, I don't really know what I'm thinking about anymore. ^^

Btw #2, someone called me a walking zombie in campus. Said that the was a dementor sucking off happiness off me 24/7, and that I scare people off with the expression on my face. She even called me scary. Boohooo.. T_T This has been the worst year of my life, but from what I've gathered, things that don't kill you makes you stronger, though I doubt that any "getting stronger" has happened. Maybe I would when I grow old enough to reflect upon the current situation. ^^

It's getting late dear diary, I've got to go and try to 'study' somemore. I'll let you see some pictures sometime soon, kay?

Current mood: Pink
Current song: Simple Plan - Forgot what song^^

XoXo.

Sucks. You know what, I'm getting pretty bored around here in coll. Bored of the same emotions that comes and goes. Never ending cycle.

I'm jealous, I'm a pretty jealous bastard. This is the feeling that I've always had. I knew I had it, I just never told myself that it was jealousy. Goddamn jealousy. Who the fuck invented such a thing? Coupled with the amount of things to study and assignments, it's just a disaster. You concentrate, you get distracted, you think about stuff, you get jealous, you get angry, you can't study, you try to study, you think over things, you realise that you should be studying, you come over to your blog and hope that someone notices.

Real fucks.

I'm tired of rotating of being a crazy fuck who laughs his ass off, and being emo the next second. Nothing can be worst than lying to yourself. I'm miserable.

I should just leave this godforsaken place. I don't know why I'm complaining though, I brought all these upon myself.

This just sucks, now I'm complaining about the things that I did to myself. God... don't tell me that I exchanged that few hours of being on cloud nine for this shit that has gone on for months. Fuck karma, it doesn't fucking work.

I need to get out of here go on a long holiday, or hit myself on the head to get amnesia, or get someone to hit me silly. This has gone on long enough.

FOR FUCKS SAKE. I'VE ENOUGH. Can someone just get an eraser and erase this feeling off me, like now? Being emo suck.

ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH. Need to get icecream. Kthxbye.

I do have it after all. Now that everything is settling down, what do i do next?

Edit: I take back what I said about settling down.

Everything looks better in another light. But when the sun shines again, you remember how much dirt you have overlooked. You can either dress things up to make it look wonderful no matter how you look at it, or you could accept the fact that it is dirt stained and make the effort to clean it up.

We'd always say the latter would be better, but to what extent do we do the things that we say?

Ever had the feeling that the world is against you? The feeling where you think that God has been unfair. The feeling of being lonely, insignificant, neglected, unimportant, minute, replaceable, dispensable. Feeling so much pain, hurt, hate, despair, confusion, frustration.

All because of an individual.

I've no idea why I'm doing this anyway, since I already know the answers to the question that I'm asking.

All because of an individual. But in fact, you still have people who still care. It's only that you weren't willing to share. A burden shared is a burden halved. Maybe it's because that I subconsciously choose to feel such feelings, so that I'd never forget about the individual. Good or bad, I'd remember them for life.

People are foolish. I'm one of them.
So much self pity, I'm starting to get sick of myself.

bull·shit (blsht) Vulgar Slang

Meh... sorry for the lack of updates. For those who don't know, I was involved in orientation, which was very fun. Note very. Before orientation started we had to go through a series of boring seminars and talks for 3 weeks. Yep, 3 weeks, not so fun. But that didn't stop the crazy bunch of us from having fun, we were jumping into rivers, playing at the waterfall etc etc. Also got to know alot of people, which is also fun. Yah.. fun.

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I'm starting to think that I can't write.

Fun fun fun fun. I want a new camera. I want to go back home. I want to play with my dogs. I'm bringing a crazy bunch of people who has too much money to South Korea. Yah, if everything goes well, I'll be off to South Korea next year. That is IF everything goes well. Being very idealistic at the moment. Fun fun fun fun. Oh.. our college emerged as CHAMPIONS for cheers, I believe in miracles now. Fun fun fun.

Pictures

PMs (Orientation Facis) with the juniors afer Malam Juara-juara.


Before one of the boring induction courses.


7th, 8th, 12th College Lolipop Alliance.

I apologise for the quality of the pictures taken. The 7.2 megapix camera used was lousy. More pictures up soon. On another note, Shanghai Day 3 is up.

Entering 11th week. After a year, almost 3 months wasted.